I had to get up my nerve to look at the sutures in my son's head. They were truly a work of art. A silver streak went down the right side of his head in an "S" curve. It looked like 100 tiny staples side by side. His wife was poetry in motion; she saw bleeding and jumped up to get something to stop it. She was such an inspiration, until it gave me the courage to check out the wound.. My son was too busy grinning and extending his hand to everyone who came to visit to comprehend that the pain medication was keeping him afloat. Only two people could visit him at a time and since there was this enless parade of people, I decided to sit in the visiting area across the hall. As I watched all the people going in and out of his room, I thought "Lord, they are going to kill my child. Don't they know that he just had an operation and was cut across two lobes of his head." The shock of him being shot probably had the same effect on them that it had on me. They wanted to see for themselves that he was alright.
I decided to go back to my friends house and take a bath. As I luxuriated in a tub big enough to swim in, the Lord spoke and said, "Long before the bullet left the gun, it had a designation but there was a parameter on it." I struggled with that statement. I've walked with God for 30 or more years and I thought things like this were not supposed to happen and here I have my Lord and Savior telling me a bullet was meant for my son. I almost lost my grip, but God was speaking to me and He doesn't waste words. Among other things He also spoke about faith. I became so hyped, I had to call my spiritual advisor to tell her what the Lord said. I talked non-stop for a good ten minutes and finally had to calm myself down.
That's what happens when you have an encounter with God. The mundane ceases to be and you get this whole new lease on life. Life is so much more precious. Time is not to be wasted. As I drove home, I had forgotten what the Lord said about faith so I asked Him to remind me. The purpose of the Comforter, the Paraketos, the One along side who aids in our inabilities is to bring all things to our remembrance whatsoever the Lord has said unto us (John 14:26). The Lord reminded me of what He had said. I always repeat what the Lord says back to Him. I said, you mean you give us the faith to believe you. In response He answered, "Have the faith of Christ." I came home, made a plaque and hung it on my bathroom wall and signed it...God!
When the Lord does something in our lives, we are not supposed to get emotional. Faith is not an emotional feeling. It is not an attempt to do something. It is not an attempt to believe something. It is about having confidence in the LORD (Yahweh--God of covenant) and trusting Him regardless of what our five senses say. When we have a good opinion of God, we can expect the good in every situation.. For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, thoughts of peace and not of evil that I may give you an expected in (Jer. 29:11). God wants our highest good. Before that fateful day in January, I had been pouring over the scriptures with a fine-tooth comb. But, I've found that the beauty of studying the word of God is that our spiritual awareness is heightened and we receive strength in the inner man. We see things that we would otherwise read right over. As the word builds us up, God not only corrects our doctrine but things we've heard other people say. I am convinced the Bible is not saying what we were told it says. That's the whole purpose of reading it for ourselves. What God wants to say to you is personal!
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